its fast approaching one of my least favorite times of the year....the holidays. this is especially dramatic cause im a card carryin believer in the origin of christmas...christ himself! but ugh! thanksgiving yuck christmas DOUBLE yuck! i dont like wishing someone a "merry christmas!" or wearing red and green together. i dont like the music playing in every store that is clogged with seasonal shoppers when i come there all the time like a normal person who hangs out at target. and i really really dont like santa and the lies that we tell children to believe in.

i found out santa wasnt real when i was 7. my parents had been having a tough year and christmas was reeeally last minute. all my gifts had price tags on them. no- santa does not shop at k-mart mom. but i dont care about that. i wasnt shocked and i didnt cry. its just a weird lie to tell in the first place.

i hate this time of the year for personal reasons. its such a be happy and come together with your family time of year and on a certain level i will never experience that.

plus i hate the over spending of this country during this time of year. way to get into tons of debt over pajama sets and glass balls. screw the poor, macy's is having a great sale on ties!!!

also we (christians) have 2 holidays to celebrate our faith and we spend it with a guy with a big gut and bear??? in the spring i get all pissed at a bunny too. yeah this is just crazy.

im not a complete jerk. i dont mind if you want to celebrate a holiday or two. have a few traditions if you want. just please keep it out of my face already! the music, the food, the colors, the smells everywhere, the cheer and joy...its too much.

it just makes me sad for what i dont have.

gay wednesday!

i havent loved ross mathews as long as some people. he used to be on the tonight show sometimes but his high voice and silliness didnt really make me laugh. but now hes on my best friends show Chelsea Lately and he is soooo funny! do you watch chelsea lately? if you dont you should. shes funny and shes my dear dear friend, and she thinks im the funniest thing ever! so sweet...

he used to be fat (like me!) and lost a ton of weight and on his blog its got a whole section devoted to that. be funny and get healthy!!!

so learn him, love him, live him! hes ultra gay and ultra awesome!!

let's talk clothes!

i have the urge to get a new wardrobe. i usually wear easy dresses, nothing crazy but not boring....i hope. these are things i have found or recently bought and they are all dresses and skirts duh! i gotta start dressing better. my look feels boring compared to some of the people who post on fashion blogs. i'm comparing myself to internet people...lame.

way cute torrid dress on clearance!!

old navy skirt that could be worn in the summer or with black tights in the winter, not that texas has one.

simple black gap skirt could go with anything and everything!

color block skirt from old navy is so cute right now and this is pretty simple like i like it

this is a spring looking dress from old navy but i love its vintage look.

like if i tease my hair i could look like june carter cash!!

preppy and organic looking. i can be that right? its cheap from old navy.

i like the decoration on the neck, its something you could pay tons of money from urban for but its cheap from old navy.

black tulip skirt from old navy. i want to wear this with a cute cardigan!

i bought it on sale from old navy! 25 bucks!!

i love you.

gay wednesday!

umm can we talk about how cute brad goreski is?? if you dont know who he is you are missing out. the blue eyes, the great hair, the rosy cheeks!!!!

sure hes on the gay team but thats his appeal. hes snarky enough to sit outside a cafe and people watch with, but hes so sweet and cute he would totally hug you if you felt ugly, and he can help you pick out cute outfits at target.

i love you.

don miller

last night i went to hear donald miller, author of blue like jazz, speak and read from his new book. i must say i was going alone and i was not sure how exciting this would be. i mean i love his books but to just hear him talk...boooring. but he was so funny! and he actually kinda preached out about life and how its hard sometimes and thats ok cause it makes it worth it. all things i needed to hear. hearing him and the wonderful Susan Isaacs made me remember why i should still love my fellow believers. people aren't horrible but they normally don't think like me, and thats ok. i can think different and i can be right and they can be right. er- maybe it doesn't matter who is right or wrong. whatever. i can believe and live in the world and enjoy life and anyone too stuffy to see that i am doing it ok can suck it!

i'm gonna read more.

donald miller should be my boyfriend. we are both christ loving people, we are both from texas, we are both awesome! but i met him last night and the sparks did not really fly. i felt them but he let me leave without asking for my number. maybe he's shy?

hi k!

i love you.

this is about equality...

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/rev-eric-lee/marriage-equality-struck_b_341980.html

i love you.