LA

im going to LAAAAAAAAAA! i am so stinkin excited!

no i havent been there before, i might be the only one on earth. when i was younger i would beg my mom to move us there so i could become an actress. i swear she was almost convinced. she is so selfish. i'll be in santa monica mostly but i'll def go see the hollywood sign and the getty. maybe go shopping at the grove and eat at nobu who knows! my only real agenda is to run into john mayer and fall in love. my bestie k is coming too, but i think her real agenda is to bump into perez hilton and fall in fag hag love with him....and see the sign. im so lucky to have the best travel buddy ever!

unless we kill eachother then its her fault.

i'm going shopping...

oh i am so broke buuuut i need new clothes cause i am going on a mini vacation to LA this month.

aaaaaah cant wait!!

i need to either find better stores to shop at that have big sizes or stores seriously need to get with it and carry bigger sizes!

gay wednesday!!

i wish i could say i have read andy's book, but i cant. i only like him cause he is a total hunk and he is super hot delivering the news. its so sexy when he went to iraq and got all up in the war.

i am not the only one too. girls and boys all over the country think he's a hottie.

and while he is not "out" who cares, if he wants to keep secrets let him. everyone knows it.

so anderson, i accept you my darling. i love you gay or not.

its fast approaching one of my least favorite times of the year....the holidays. this is especially dramatic cause im a card carryin believer in the origin of christmas...christ himself! but ugh! thanksgiving yuck christmas DOUBLE yuck! i dont like wishing someone a "merry christmas!" or wearing red and green together. i dont like the music playing in every store that is clogged with seasonal shoppers when i come there all the time like a normal person who hangs out at target. and i really really dont like santa and the lies that we tell children to believe in.

i found out santa wasnt real when i was 7. my parents had been having a tough year and christmas was reeeally last minute. all my gifts had price tags on them. no- santa does not shop at k-mart mom. but i dont care about that. i wasnt shocked and i didnt cry. its just a weird lie to tell in the first place.

i hate this time of the year for personal reasons. its such a be happy and come together with your family time of year and on a certain level i will never experience that.

plus i hate the over spending of this country during this time of year. way to get into tons of debt over pajama sets and glass balls. screw the poor, macy's is having a great sale on ties!!!

also we (christians) have 2 holidays to celebrate our faith and we spend it with a guy with a big gut and bear??? in the spring i get all pissed at a bunny too. yeah this is just crazy.

im not a complete jerk. i dont mind if you want to celebrate a holiday or two. have a few traditions if you want. just please keep it out of my face already! the music, the food, the colors, the smells everywhere, the cheer and joy...its too much.

it just makes me sad for what i dont have.

gay wednesday!

i havent loved ross mathews as long as some people. he used to be on the tonight show sometimes but his high voice and silliness didnt really make me laugh. but now hes on my best friends show Chelsea Lately and he is soooo funny! do you watch chelsea lately? if you dont you should. shes funny and shes my dear dear friend, and she thinks im the funniest thing ever! so sweet...

he used to be fat (like me!) and lost a ton of weight and on his blog its got a whole section devoted to that. be funny and get healthy!!!

so learn him, love him, live him! hes ultra gay and ultra awesome!!

let's talk clothes!

i have the urge to get a new wardrobe. i usually wear easy dresses, nothing crazy but not boring....i hope. these are things i have found or recently bought and they are all dresses and skirts duh! i gotta start dressing better. my look feels boring compared to some of the people who post on fashion blogs. i'm comparing myself to internet people...lame.

way cute torrid dress on clearance!!

old navy skirt that could be worn in the summer or with black tights in the winter, not that texas has one.

simple black gap skirt could go with anything and everything!

color block skirt from old navy is so cute right now and this is pretty simple like i like it

this is a spring looking dress from old navy but i love its vintage look.

like if i tease my hair i could look like june carter cash!!

preppy and organic looking. i can be that right? its cheap from old navy.

i like the decoration on the neck, its something you could pay tons of money from urban for but its cheap from old navy.

black tulip skirt from old navy. i want to wear this with a cute cardigan!

i bought it on sale from old navy! 25 bucks!!

i love you.

gay wednesday!

umm can we talk about how cute brad goreski is?? if you dont know who he is you are missing out. the blue eyes, the great hair, the rosy cheeks!!!!

sure hes on the gay team but thats his appeal. hes snarky enough to sit outside a cafe and people watch with, but hes so sweet and cute he would totally hug you if you felt ugly, and he can help you pick out cute outfits at target.

i love you.

don miller

last night i went to hear donald miller, author of blue like jazz, speak and read from his new book. i must say i was going alone and i was not sure how exciting this would be. i mean i love his books but to just hear him talk...boooring. but he was so funny! and he actually kinda preached out about life and how its hard sometimes and thats ok cause it makes it worth it. all things i needed to hear. hearing him and the wonderful Susan Isaacs made me remember why i should still love my fellow believers. people aren't horrible but they normally don't think like me, and thats ok. i can think different and i can be right and they can be right. er- maybe it doesn't matter who is right or wrong. whatever. i can believe and live in the world and enjoy life and anyone too stuffy to see that i am doing it ok can suck it!

i'm gonna read more.

donald miller should be my boyfriend. we are both christ loving people, we are both from texas, we are both awesome! but i met him last night and the sparks did not really fly. i felt them but he let me leave without asking for my number. maybe he's shy?

hi k!

i love you.

this is about equality...

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/rev-eric-lee/marriage-equality-struck_b_341980.html

i love you.

goals...

i had the honor of going to the sweetest, and most amazing wedding this weekend. i used it as a mini vacation and got to spend all weekend with old friends. and these are the most amazing old friends. they are all funny, and they all love to have a good time. and they are all so sweet to each other its inspiring me to think about how i want to treat people and be treated, and how i want to live my life.

goals so far...

1. work out! im super un-healthy and its gross. plus there are super cute clothes i cant wear till im not a fattie fattie 2X4
2. read all the top 100 american classic books
3. learn to knit
4. save money to move out on my own for real
5. pay off my car
6. take tap dance lessons and really stick with it
7. cook at least once before the year is over (i havent in 2 years)

aaaaahhhhhh pressure to do it and not give up. here i go!

i love you.

pretty?

oh no ma'am

what?? what?!

what happened to you stephanie? you were dramatic yes, but you were pretty and kind of stupid so i felt bad for you and even liked you. now youre a trouble starter and reek of desperation. and you look old.

gross.

i love you.

let's talk clothes

being a big girl it is soooo hard to find clothes. so this weekend i have an out of town wedding to go to and i was determined to put together a cute outfit, as this is going to be the funnest wedding of 2009! plus i am making a mini vacation out of it so i will be in austin for 4 days of fun and friends!!

my dress from alloy

but what shoes?!?!

aaah i leave friday and i have a lot of things to do.

i love you.

god and such

a christian in america these days i am often disgusted by how my fellow christians treat anyone who isint as holy as they think they are. i like to think i am progressive and open minded, but my conservative counterparts say i am "fooling myself" and that i go to a hippie church. i am young and the problems of my generation haunt me as my own even when they are far from my daily struggles. i am not gay, yet i love the gay community and want them to have basic civil freedoms. i am not a minority and i don't usually go against the grain at all, but my heart hurts as a christian for those that are. the biggest challenge i face everyday is sticking up for my faith when so many christians have given it a bad name. i am not alone in this apparently. i recently found a magazine called relevant all about forward thinking faith and the arts, and a website called conversantlife about the same. this gives me hope that i wont be the last faith filled person standing up for differences in humanity.

read. ask questions. change. love people.

i love you.

mean girls

i have an attitude problem. my problem is that i am too blunt and make a lot of jokes. i happen to think i am funny and usually people agree....

but some time ago i had "break up" with my best gal pal over my tude. she said all i did was make her feel stupid by my humor. and i'm not making excuses but usually the jokes were ones like saying words incorrectly or if she got too drunk and was dancing crazy. no more than anyone else laughed about and we all laughed at everyone, even me! so when she got all pissed and told me she needed space, YES that is what she actually said, i figured no biggie. a little time apart, she will come around, we have been friends for years and i have always been the same. a whole year later we still don't talk! i have tried to get together to talk it out, text her i'm sorry, even smiled at her when i saw her. our friends are all the same so it gets weird really fast when we are all together. this is not helped by my nervous habit of calling out the awkwardness in front of everyone.

this is all to say i HATE drama. i have not been in a group of mean girls since 6th grade. yes people fight a little but friends are friends through bad and good right?! now she is talking bad about me??? i still haven't said a bad thing about her. she is lovely and fun and my friend i thought...

if someone chooses to not be my friend then i should say screw em and move on. i am awesome at friendship and would give my friends the shirt off my back! yet i feel stupid, i feel like i am missing part of me when we aren't friends, and i feel bad for hurting her feelings.

i have talked about this for a year now and i still feel the same loser feelings. so today i stop. this is the last time i will ever complain about it. i control how i let people make me feel and i can not keep letting her make me feel bad. but i'm still sad....

this makes it better

i love you.

a room with a view

apartmenttherapy has a whole post about decorating with books. i have not tried this yet, but i reeeally want a house like this!

i love you.

well hello...

my name is stacey d. and i am new. i have wanted to start a blog for a minute now, but i have never known what to write. what's different this time? nothing. i read so many blogs out there that i should be ok at this...i hope.

no big deal but i have no idea how to blog. i wonder how many blogs start like that? i mean it, i have NO idea how to make things pretty or link stuff.

sooooo good luck to me!

here is just something about me even though no one is reading this.

• i live in houston, tx and i friggin love it. it gets hot but the people are great and there is always something to do
• hair is my art but i love all kinds of artsy creative things (cause i am not very creative myself)! hopefully i will be posting it all in this bloggy
• i read nonstop because it's the cheapest vacation you can get. i am even in a book club, http://thebookettes.blogspot.com/, but we never read anything so i think it might not count
• i love you. a lot.

i love you.